birthday horoscope

Here are just a few things I pulled out of my long horoscope for this nineteenth year ahead that really stood out to me.

"From the Fall 2010 forward, you experience a transiting trine from Saturn to your Sun, and you are more comfortable with who you are."

"Your life seems more stable during this time period and you are less vulnerable to self-delusions. You know what your responsibilities are, and you meet them."

"When it comes to your love relationships, you are likely to be reviewing your attachments in order to determine whether they are preventing you from growing. Adjustments may need to be made in order to lead a more fulfilling life. Discerning between what you want to believe and reality figures strongly."

"There is certainly charm in the way you present your ideas this year, helping to smooth over differences in your personal relationships. You are expressing yourself more creatively. You are likely to meet with people who stimulate you intellectually this year and contribute to your intellectual growth. There is much to learn in this period of your life! You are enthusiastic and optimistic about your plans, and you are able to inspire others with your vision. You often experience flashes of insight and come up with exciting new ideas. The communications industry may be especially rewarding on a financial level."

"However, you need to be aware of a tendency to be attracted to impractical ventures. You may find that is too easy to waste your time and energy, perhaps due to a lack of drive or feeling directionless."

"This could also be a year in which you are more creative and intuitive."

"Attempts to assert your individuality, freedom, and originality undermine your feelings of groundedness and security. Yet, you are not satisfied when you conform. There may be sudden and unexpected twists that force you to do something different or that help free yourself from old habits."

"Setbacks tend to be temporary and often lead to new, more creative paths or solutions."

"Jupiter joined with Uranus is also found in your Solar Return chart, and this suggests the need for progressive change in your life."

"Enthusiasm runs high, the desire for freedom from restrictions is strong, and thirst for adventure is with you. "

"Making new and beneficial contacts, especially on an intellectual level, is likely to figure strongly in the year ahead. Social and romantic relationships are in focus, bringing excitement and some ups and downs."

"Clinging to past behaviors will not serve you well."

"A disciplined but flexible approach to your life wins the most success this year. You are feeling more self-assured and with your feet on the ground and an eye to the future, you are bound to make solid progress this year."


"2010 is a Number One year for you. Ruled by the Sun. This is a year of action. The seeds you plant now, you will reap later. Others might find you less sociable, as you are busier than ever and you focus on your activities and your needs. Still, you are outgoing and your initiative is stronger than ever. Advice - Stand alone, take action, start fresh, express independence."

"2011 will be a Number Two year for you. Ruled by the Moon. This is a year of potential companionship. It is a quiet, gentle, and mostly harmonious year that is less active than other years. Instead, you are more responsive to the needs of others. If you are patient and open yourself up in a gentle manner, you will attract both things and people. This is an excellent year in which to build and develop for the future. Advice - be patient, be receptive, enjoy the peace, collect."

A little more personal

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Ask me anything.

time traveler

Won't you take me back to March? I've made a few mistakes, you see. I'm not myself, you see.

Faded from the winter

Today was so relaxing! I woke up at 9 and my mom had made breakfast for all of us. The rest of my day was spent relaxing inside and occasionally setting foot out in the 25 inches of snow we got with my family. We never all spend the day together because we're always home at different times. I really enjoyed today.

"Daddy's ghost behind you, sleeping dog beside you. You're a poem of mystery. You're the prayer inside me. Spoken words like moonlight, you're the voice that I like. Needlework and seedlings, in the way you're walking to me from the timbers, faded from the winter." -Iron & Wine



Ps, I made a tumblr for photos and quotes that meant something to me, but this blog is of course for my thoughts.
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febfebfeb

Right now, right this very moment I feel ok, I am ok. After struggling with getting back into the swing of things with school, I am finally getting focused. I'm no longer doubting myself and whether or not I should have gone to Liberty, stayed at Dcad, or even gone to Deltech in the first place. All that matters is right now, and where I am right now is Deltech. Just because I go to community college doesn't make me a failure. Why should I waste my money at a university when I'm not even quite sure what I want to do anymore. I'll figure it out, but for now I'm just taking it one day at a time.

Money management has taken a toll on me this past year, especially these past few months. But I am learning, I'm learning and I'm working on it. I only owe $600 to Dcad and that won't take very long at all if I just work towards it and practice my spendings carefully.

Things to look forward to:
+ Paying off school!
+ Spring! (Sooner rather than later pllleeassseee?)
+ Beach house for a week in June with my friends!
+ New hair cut/color!
+ New tattoo?
+ Traveling and visiting friends in the near future!

Ask me anything in the world. I'll address anything. Past, present, future.
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Heartbreak Warfare by John Mayer

f-stops and shutter speeds.

I wish I didn't give up so easily.

Velocity vs. Viscosity

New years eve night I arrive at a party by myself. The clock is counting down and drinks are being poured. I watch younger girls make spectacles of themselves in the living room. I check my phone and see 11:52, the new year is creeping up in a matter of minutes as well as midnight kisses. "They say how you spend your new years, is how you spend the rest of your year," rings in my ears. I set my beer down, grab my coat and keys, and go out to my car. 11:58, as I select my favorite song and start my car. "They say how you spend your new years, is how you spend the rest of your year." I want this year to be different. I drive to my best friends house and arrive at 12:06. Together, we split half a bottle of 100 proof. I never felt a thing, and have the best sleep I've had all year.

A new year, a new semester. I have finally worked up the courage to go into school today and apply and try again elsewhere. There's more to life than what I have. I'm living a life that is far too easy and relaxed. Same old same, repetition. Take two, because I need more.

I went up to visit Jenna Norris the other night with Tori and we drove around Mechanicsburg until 5:30 am. Listening to her stories and memories about her home make me long for mine even more. Nothing feels like home anymore. The other night made me realize that I don't need a resolution. I just need to take breaths and grasp some form of stability, reality. 2009, your woods were lovely, dark and deep. I went crazy for awhile, and I'm just now catching my breath. The weather is getting colder and I think it's time for me to go home.

Hey, Soul Sister by Train

2009,
+ Turned 18
+ Graduated
+ Took my lip ring out after 4 years
+ Met Jenna Norris, Devon and Cristina
+ Got 2nd row for free at a JoBros concert
+ Had the best summer ever with my best friend
+ Went to college for something I love
+ Dropped out
+ Got a tattoo