My thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth.

It's not unusual lately to find me awake at ridiculous hours into the night. I must have layed in bed for about an hour until I could no longer fight off my thoughts, which were growing increasingly louder as time went on. I suppose that sometimes you just need to write, and when you need to write, you need to write. I'm unorganized right now, I can't think. I guess what I needed is to just sort out all my thoughts until I can begin to rest.

As the first week of summer began I found myself awakening at 1, 2 o'clock in the afternoon. This is completely uncalled for and such a wasted of what had potential to be a good day. I quickly jumped into breaking that habit and no longer allow myself to sleep in past 11:30, which if you ask me I still think is too late to be sleeping still. The day is nearly half over.

Today I awoke at 11:30, got up and put on my bathing suit. Which by the way, I have practically been living in the past week. Helllloooo suntan. I was at my moms work laying out by the pool not long later. Of course only to find that it was too hot and I wasn't feeling laying under the sun today. My mothers boss recently bought her a scanner for her office that I had set up for her, more than willingly and more than eager to use it, the day before. Brought all of my polaroids that have been needing to be scanned from the past 6 months to presently and scanned them all.

Forgot to mention that I stopped by Jake's house on the way and he gave me the latest mix cd he's made me. Which by the way, I am completely in love with. I think of all the cd's he has made me over the past 2 years, practically, this one is my favorite. I really enjoyed listening to it all throughout the day while driving around. I'm excited to listen to it fully for the 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th time, and so on. You know how you know one of your favorite cd's so well that at the end of one song you know the beginning beat to the next that's coming up? I love that.

Went to the deli down the road and bought tea and sandwiches for us all to share. Sat under the umbrella-ella-ella-justkidding. outside by the pool with my mom and Anna for lunch. Went to the grocery store for the sweet old lady that lives in the apartment complex my mom works at. Afterwards stopped by Jake's pool down the road and swam there for a half hour until it was time to take off for work.

Jake gave me a book today that he's been wanting me to read.
I'll admit, I wasn't really looking forward to it but was going to anyway because he asked me to. Although I'm actually really excited now to start reading it. I just hope it's not too complex for me. Jake's right, I really do need to get into reading good books. I read a lot of books that are just plain stupid, but they entertain me and I enjoy them. I haven't read anything amazing for awhile. Although I doubt anything could ever top The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chobsky.
The book I'm borrowing from him is called Black by Ted DekKer

Dropped Anna off back at home and got ready for work. Went to work tonight unfortunately until close, 11 o'clock. Fell really behind with closing and didn't get to leave on time. I have no idea what the heck I was doing and why I was so behind. Maybe I was busy? That's what my tip outings are saying tonight anyway. Drove out of the parking lot with $55 in my pocket. Not bad, not bad at all. Considering I usually make around $30 some.

Unfortunately I have failed yet again to successfully put and keep money aside for my grandmother that I owe her. I REALLY need to stop this. That's it. My $30 paycheck, and $25 of my tip earnings from tonight are going in an envelope and I'm giving them to her on Sunday when I see her on Father's Day.

For some strange reason I really have the urge to buy Wii Fit.
What the heck. I don't even play Wii. My sister Anna has one but we never use it. Hm. I think I've heard it has Yoga and all these other excercises you can use. I want it. I can't save money very well, I'll probably buy it in the next few weeks. Of course I'm sure Anna will blackmail me saying I can't use her Wii.

Exactly one year ago I was at the Atlantis resort in the Bahamas.
Freaking ridiculous. Take me baaaaaccccccck..... NOW.

I feel like if someone were to give me a pack of post-it's, I would have little sticky notes everywhere right now. I could write for hours and hours and hours and hours. Maybe I just wanted someone to talk to and tell all this to.

I'm shaking a little bit. I think I'm kinda cold.
I started this post almost an hours ago at 2, it's now almost 3.
Maybe I should go lay down in bed and try to fall asleep, try.
Jake's graduation party is tomorrow. I hope I'm not tired.

I just remembered that I put this powdered energy drink mix into my water tonight at work that my friend gave me. Apparently it really does work. Hah, well, apparently.

Dice by Finley Quaye
The World At Large by Modest Mouse

Yellow bird bathing suit :)


Ps, Jake and I went on a date on Thursday night.
Arrived home at 1am. It was great fun.