thunderstorms.

The past few days have brought rainy weather, not that I mind.
Last night it thunder stormed well into 2am.
I was online late into the night and around 2 I went and laid in my bed.
It was unusual because my sister is always watching tv, and to my annoyance, leaves it on all night. This time though, it was off, and the curtains and blinds were wide open. When I asked why, she said she was watching the room light up and listening to the rain.
On second thought, that seemed quite relaxing.
So at 2 am, wide awake but sleepy eyed, I laid on top of my bed and watched the room light up every ten seconds, listening to the rain fall.
I eventually talked to Jake on the phone and talked well into almost 3 am.

Today my sister and I woke up and got ready to go pick up my grandmother.
Because of her surgery she is unable to drive for right now so we picked her up to take her to her doctors appointment up in Concord.
Unfortunately for us, her so called "half hour" appointment ended up being almost 2 hours.
By the time we left it was down pouring so badly it was hard to drive.

Afterwards, we went to Taco Bell for a quick lunch where we mistakenly ate inside.
While inside it began to storm even more so badly that the power went out.
So there we are, sitting in a dark Taco Bell, with little light shining through the windows from outside.
If that wasn't weird enough a group of woman with a serious attitude problem, and a police officer who was not in uniform and off-duty proceeded to get in each others faces. They were asked to leave by the manager and caused an even bigger scene after they refused to leave.
The man called his friend who was on duty and a police officer came minutes later.
I hate any sort of confrontation and sitting in a dark Taco Bell, with weirdos at one table and these people in their face at another was enough for me.

After things calmed down we left, and proceeded to Concord mall, where we went on a mini-shopping spree. There, my grandmother bought me 2 new outfits and a few pairs of really cute underwear, wooooo.
Fortunately, I was able to find a new pair of skinny jeans that I like that actually FIT.
I'm picking up my size, that of course they didn't have, at the local mall tomorrow where they are holding them for me.

I'm really excited for fall clothes shopping.
Skinny jeans, berets, boots.
I'm really not looking forward to it getting cold though.
Cool, but not cold, please.

Today was a weird but good day.

Bangs like Nicole's soon? Possibility.

Sneakernight by Vanessa Hudgens, because it's stuck in my head. Speaking of her, is it completely lame that I'm excited for HSM3?

#7

Yesterday my Mom, Anna and I all went to the beach for the day.
Upon our arrival at the beach I began feeling tired and dehydrated.
I decided to avoid the sun and hid under the umberella relaxing for most of the time.
In retrospect, that couldn't have been a better idea for my sister and mother are sunburned.
I, however, am modeling a lovely tan with no burn.

This past week I finally got around to cleaning our room.
Our as in Anna and I's room.
Unfortunately the bunk bed set up we have in our room took up the entire bedroom.
My step dad Bruce helped take it apart, and we now have two seperate beds on opposite sides of the room. S p a c e. Thank god I can breathe again.

I've been doing a lot of organizing the past few days and throwing things out that I no longer need, no more clutter. Although the brief makeover has satisfied me for now, I must say I'm no longer into these lime green and hot pink walls that once suited me. I'm not just not feelin' it anymore. It's so loud and I'm ready to settle down with a nice neutral color. Ahaha, and here I thought I'd have these colored walls for the rest of my life.
I'm definietly ready for something more mature.
This includes the 5 year old ripped Hawaiian comforter on my bed. Possibly getting a new comforter very soon.

As much as I love summer, I'm so excited for fall.
I'm ready to get this school year started and finished, I'm ready to graduate.
Starting school means one step closer to graduating, which means one step closer to being on my own. I can't wait to go to college and provide for myself and work on my career and live in an apartment or dorm that I share with someone my age, and not a younger sister who is not even twelve yet. I'm just so ready to be on my own. I'm excited for my life.

And while my mind is on the future and being on my own.
I'm proud to say Jake has helped me set up a plan for saving and I've already started it.
I'm working hard, when I'm working anyways.
Unfortunately there are one too many, er, five too many, servers resulting in everyone begging to take each others shifts.
Not to mention, I hate working there and the thought of actually wanting to pick up more shifts because I'm not making enough money makes me sick.
I applied to Starbucks and I'm really hoping they'll hire me.
Please hire me, please please please.

7 things by Miley Cyrus


I miss Sarah.

Priorities.

My disappearance was not due to nothing going on, because trust me, things have definitely been going on. In fact, possibly too much to even begin writing about now that I've waited too long.

Jake and I went to Virginia last week together with his family. There, we stayed in the time share that coincidentally, I had stayed at years ago. We went miniature golfing almost every night and in the evenings, due to crowds and heat, we would go to Busch Gardens. Our first night there we found a frog and named him Henry. There was a total of fifteen of us. Jake and his immediate family, in one unit. Jake's aunt and uncle, and their five kids, in one unit. And Jake's grandparents and I in another. Surprisingly, I got my own room.

Fortunately, I was able to break the habit immediately of sleeping in until noon. Awaking every morning at 9, in a bed with white sheets and a white down comforter, surrounded by pale yellow walls. Not to mention, my own bathroom! Every morning I would wake up and fold back the sheets neatly, draw back the curtains, filling the room with sunshine, and then take a shower. Hellllloooooooo, home. Needless to say, I got pretty used to having my own room and bathroom. Coming home was difficult, a small, messy bedroom with half the space taken up with bunk beds, and a sister to share it all with. Crowded, very crowded. I felt overwhelmed and started cleaning and desperately trying to organize everything. I finally realized that my room was in no way going to look like the room I had stayed in, and gave up.

I simply have too much stuff, and not enough space. And if I were to get rid of most of the stuff, I still wouldn't have enough space. I guess I loved it there because it just felt right. Waking up to a clean room with no junk anywhere, because of course I've only brought with me what I truly need to survive for a week. Then getting dressed and ready, walk down the hall, where I'd then be greeted by the person who means the most to me.

I suppose that's why they call it a vacation.

I'm no longer closing at work, which is wonderful. Thank you seniority, which is continuing to rise. Although, I'm making less then I was before due to coming and leaving earlier. I'm still looking for a new job, which I desperately need.

Sarah slept over last night. I drove to her work and we both went home and changed. We met up at Main St. and got ice cream at Coldstone. We just walked up and down and talked about life and such. Afterwards, we went back to my house and watched a movie and talked some more.

I can definitely tell I've gotten older. I remember when I despised Delaware and stubbornly said I'd rather not go to college at all then attend University of Delaware. As time went on though, and especially last night, I'm beginning to realize that maybe UD wouldn't be so bad. It's actually a really nice area. College still has me puzzled with where I'd like to go or what I'd even like to do. All I know is I belong in the art department, but where? I've only got a few months left to start deciding. I don't want to go into college undecided, I am decided, er, I just can't make up my mind.

I need to sort out my priorities.
I'm lazy, and I suck at saving money.

I'm $900 in debt.
I need to get this paid off by the end of July.