raepassid

I can't be trusted.
Don't place your heart in my hands, for it will crumble, I will crumble.
Because don't you remember, sweetheart?
I try and I try and I fail and I fail.
Someone might get hurt but it won't be me.

12.4 until 18.5
I've been drinking lemonade a lot lately.
I've been thinking a lot about going vegan.
I keep watching Breakfast at Tiffany's.
I bought an Audrey Hepburn poster and hung it on my wall.
It reminds me of my best friend Jessie.
It also reminds me of my friend whose bed I slept in last weekend.
I just pushed the perfect person away, because I needed space.
Space, I always need space. Maybe I should go to outerspace.
How long do you think it'd take me to get to the moon?
I would love to wander around a book store empty with a coffee cup in my hand, but please make sure the coffee cup is full.
I'm trying to read three books at once, no four.
I wish the sun would come out, and stay out. It keeps raining.
I miss my other best friend Tori.
I'm trying to remember how to be outgoing.
I joined the gym. Bye.

"The longer you think, the less you know what to do."
I've been thinking far too long.


You'll never see me again.

Pause

If I could just freeze time and feel this good all the time that would just be wonderful.
But if I freeze time, then I wouldn't know what happens next.
And I'm dying to know what'll happen next.

This summer is wonderful already, and it's hardly begun.

I mailed in my tuition deposit to Dcad the other day, confirming my acceptance. After wrestling with the idea for weeks, I finally did what's best for me, since I'm paying for school on my own, and confirmed that I will be commuting this fall, and not living on campus. Although I've wanted to get out of this state, or at least house for years and just be on my own, I know that this is the best decision for me right now. Dcad is a 2 year school, and when I transfer elsewhere, then I'll be ready. I know I need to stay here right now, and quite frankly, I actually don't mind. Maybe in 2 years I'll be ready to go and live on my own , and out of state, when I continue school elsewhere. But right now this is where I need to be, and you know what?
I'm perfectly okay with that.


Tori Tilley is my best friend.

"You two look so alike."
"We get that a lot."
"ASHLEY is the one with the flower in her hair. TORI is the one without."

Best I Ever Had by Drake

Sweet and low

"Hold me down, sweet and low little girl.

Hold me down, sweet and low and I will carry you home,

Hold me down, sweet and low little girl.

Hold me down, and I'll carry you home."

Another year older.

Alumni.

I wish I could write everything I needed to write on here.

I wish I could say everything I needed to say.

I'm trying so hard to be the girl I want to be, I need to be.

I just can't reach her.